one question

i guess i still think about it...

the general "what if?"

what would things be like now?

would they be pretty much the same?

or would we be different?

but in the end.

i can only say what did happen first i messed up

and now ive given up.

and i guess thats what has gotten us here...

wait no.

its not even us.

its me

what has gotten me here.

thats how wrong things have gone.

with no light in sight.

the ironic part of everything.

i always said i would never let this happen.

that i would never let you leave hating me.

it isnt even about making it what we use to be

i dont want that

but it is about being friends again.

or at least on non-hating grounds.

but it seems like at this point its too much to ask

and thats just so sad.